Jonathan and I started dating when I was 19 and he was 20. We were both pretty young, so we didn't plan on rushing through the dating process. I hadn't really dated anyone before and we both knew we wanted to take things slowly. After dating a while I remember when it really sunk in that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. We weren't engaged, but I knew. Honestly, I had known from the beginning, but it felt like I had finally realized that there was no turning back after that point. This was for the rest of my life! In that moment I had a little funeral for the old me, free to do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. I had to prepare to put someone else's needs before my own in a new and different way. Of course I was excited to become Jonathan's wife, but it was a little bittersweet goodbye. I loved my single years and I was never going to have them back. The season of marriage came a little sooner than I had thought, and elated as I was I knew I'd be different from then on. The girl I was before was going to fade and I was going to become a new version of myself.
Change. It's the nature of life. None of us stay the same, at least not really. As we enter into various seasons we grow and transform. Most of the time, it's a beautiful thing.
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