A little honest update...

Whew! It's been a little while since I posted any life updates here. I just got back home from going to and fro these past few weeks, only to wash and pack my bags again! It's been a crazy Summer! In all honestly, I'm all tuckered out. I'm truly thankful for all these things in my life, but lately I know I haven't taken joy in them like I should. I realize it's because I've been attempting to accomplish everything in my own strength instead of relying on Christ. It's not like I don't know better, because I do. I choose to live in pride instead of humility, feeling good about myself when I think I can do it all and awful when I can't. I listened to a sermon on my way home yesterday and it reminded my heart of grace. There is no way I can pour out grace to others in greater quantity than I receive it. I don't know about you, but I like to think that I can keep all my plates spinning on my own. Sometimes it takes a being overwhelmed, a few failures and some broken pieces for me to wake up to the fact that don't have to strive. There is an unlimited supply of strength in Christ; I just don't access it. The riches of Christ are fully and freely mine!  I can find rest in the middle of crazy, not because anything in my life seems restful, but because He is rest. I can find strength when all I am is weakness, because He is strength. There is nothing standing in the way of experiencing these riches in fullness, except me. I didn't do anything to merit it, but that's grace - getting what I don't deserve. They are gifts.

So, I guess this is where I am these days - learning, failing, forgetting what's behind and looking to Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith. I'm learning to accept grace, even when I feel the need to try and prove myself. There is nothing good in me apart from Jesus…maybe I'll learn that one day. :)

 

I hope you all are having a great July!