"Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4)
A long time ago I started praying that I would only fall in love once, and that it'd be with the man I was going to marry. I had seen so many people with broken hearts and I didn't want to be one of them. I prayed this for years...
As a 16 year old girl, I gave my love-life to God - whether that meant being single or finding the man I so desired to spend my life with here on earth. It was hard not to date. As a human beings we long for companionship. I had to be broken many times during my wait. Selfish desires and hidden longings were laid bare. I learned to know Christ as the Great Lover of my soul. Through many long and lonely Saturday nights, when all my friends were with their boyfriends, He was there.
Then I met Jonathan.
Several months later, I could tell I was falling for him. I couldn't help it. He was just so wonderful. Everything I found out about him made me like him more. Our goals and passions were so alike and I began to think, "This could be it! He might be the one I've been waiting for!" I began to see how god was bringing us together. It was thrilling and terrifying at the same time.
Over two years later, I married to my first love...the man who was my first boyfriend, the first one to hold my hand, my first kiss...Was I promised that it would turn out this way? No. For reasons beyond my knowledge, the Lord chose to honor my prayer and has given me my heart's desire. He has done exceedingly and abundantly above all that I hoped and prayed for all those years. My heart is overflowing with thankfulness for the blessing that I have received by having this man in my life. He is my hero, my head, my best friend, and my first and only love.
On May 22, 2010 we promised ourselves to each other for the rest of our lives. It was the most wonderful day of my life.
Now my desire is to faithfully love and serve this one I have been given as unto my Savior, and to be a crown that brings him honor all his days. I pray our marriage will truly be a reflection of Christ and His Church. It is such a beautiful and wonderful mystery!